Thursday, October 23, 2008

اللي كاتباه المرةدي بجد..التدوين بمعناه الهايف. بس أهي فضفضة



Standing hugging my teddy bear

All day long in home... feeling I'm not able to leave it anywhere

Now I'm so much attached to it as a child to his favourite toy


Perhaps I'm not feeling safe?!!

But why??

And why now exactly?? I really don't know


Mixed disturbed feelings are inside me

I feel I'm no more a grown-up... I'm just a girl... A simple girl that doesn't wanna lose pure feelings

Wanna feel safe

Don't like much these strange feelings!! but can't get out!


I have so much to talk about in the blog. I even wanted to talk about issues that are quite different and away from my usual style in that blog, away from my "inside" feelings........ but I just can't write anything.
I didn't plan to write what I wrote and didn't even think about it for a second, but it seems I'm not ready to write anything else away from what I feel "sometimes".

14 comments:

Rosa said...

This is what I can call purit. Keep it & never lose it.

There is nothing bad at all in keeping the feeling & clarity of a child inside you.

On the contrary it might be the fuel that keeps you going on in this helarious life safely so don't be afraid.

really, YOUR WORDS TOUCHED ME

وحـــــــــــى القلم said...

Writing what you feel,this is an extremely marvelous thing.
Everybody must say what he feel to release these prisoned feelings.
I'm really sorry about what you feel,but you must not obey your mood.When you feel that you should pray and reads the Holy Quraan . I also feel what you feel ,and so I wrote my subject "are you alone?"
It seems tha I have said too much I'm sorry my dear :-(

a Dreamer with feet on the Floor said...

...so lucky is the one..stil can find and feel the child in him...
I think even madness.. ( as people might think).. is what gives us the power 2 Bear that cruel life( is madness is meant 2 B romance)

همسات دافئه said...

hugging my teddy bear

كلنا نشعر بالأمان بحانب تلك الأشياء
كلنا نحكى بصدق فقط بجانبها
كلنا تصر على وجودها تلك الطفله اللاهيه داخلنا
*****
طب كويس انتى ألسن
طلعنا زمايل:)))

وحـــــــــــى القلم said...

Oh,it that I have misunderstood you.
I thought that you feel what I feel
Sorry

Mafrousa said...

habibti this feeling it come's from time to time to the very senstive persson
and u r one of them
but u have to talk as soon as u have the chance
i told u b4 that u can write to me whaterver u want
i know its difficult to trust any one
but u can ask your heart who to trust
i left my e mail b4 "wahdamafrousa@ymail.com"

and keep your teddy bear ...
every one has his own
u r a very senstive person

Anonymous said...

عزيزتي الفراشه

أولا العنوان غير موفق بالمره بيتهيألي التدوين في صوره من صوره هو أن الواحد يقدر يفرغ اللي جواه وأنتي رغم صعوبه اللي جواكي مش بس قدرتي تعبري عنه أنتي قدرتي تجسميه للوحه جميله

wanna feel safe

هي دي المشكله وهي دي الحل في نفس الوقت

على الهامش

بصي حواليكي شويه كمان أكيد هتلاقي إجابات كتيره بس لو قررتي أنك تطلبيها

تحياتي

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

Om hagar,

I'm not afraid :)
I'm just TERRIFIED.

Thanks for your very sweet words. I really appreciate it a lot.

Keep it& never lose it? :) mmm... I'm not sure it's up to me. Sometimes I wish to lose it but I can't !!

It's my pleasure..that u liked my simple words.

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

just a tearوحي قلم

First of all, you didn't say too much.. and you're free to write as much as you want seriously.
That's a blog:) 3aaaady ya3ni.

Ya you're right. I musn't follow this mood... hope Allah would give me strength to push that fear away soon inshaAllah.

Thans for your sweet words:). I certainly follow your advice alhamdulillah.

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

a dreamer with feet on the floor,

Madness gives the power to bear that cruel life.


Thank you

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

همسات دافئة

و ساكنة في مدينة نصر
:))طلعنا جيران كمان

بس ساعات بتكون "الطفلة اللاهية" دي هي أكبر مشكلة في حياتك.. لما الناس تكون بتتعامل بأسلوب مش يليق أبدا مع الطفلة اللي جوانا دي. و لما يتفهم اللي انت بتقوليه و يتترجم دايما بطريقة تانية. ساعتها بكون نفسي الطفلة دي تختفي تماما

بحب كلماتك أوي أوي يا شيمو :)

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

just a tearوحي القلم

مش فهمت ليه الاعتذار!! انت مش قلتي حاجة غلط أصلا

بجد مش فهمت سبب التعليق دة خالص

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

واحدة مفروسة

h don't have to ask my heart.
I know you're a very good person, a great friend actually..and I love u soooo much wallahi.
I totally trust u.
I tried to write u more than once, but I always can't make it. I can't express what I feel or tell u what's happening.

I'm really sorry.
I need nice people like u:), but can't talk in the same time.
ربنا يخليكي لي بجد

Wish I were a Butterfly ... said...

إنسان مقيد

كلام كبير أوي أوي عليّ

ربنا يكرمك و شكرا بجد على كلمات التشجيع الجامدة دي


بس أبص حواليا فين؟؟؟