Friday, August 24, 2007

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My brother has just left now. I don't know whether I'll see him again b4 he travells or not!!

I didn't hug him or anything... though I'm more than 70% sure that I won't see him again soon. He will be travelling in a few days.

I couldn't hug him as I didn't wanna cry... and anyway, I also cried just after we closed our house's door.

I don't know why actually I'm writing this! or to whom! I'm sure that's something quite personal& none would care to know it... All I know is that I rushed to the computer as soon as my brother left, so that I would remove that sad feeling... but I guess I failed :(

Are You Ready ?



20 days left for Ramadan...

Did you get ready for it?!!

We always say that we've to get ready & prepare for the moment of our death... You actually don't know when the time of your death is!!

But . . . at least, you know that a month of great great FORGIVENESS and MERCY is coming, and it's too difficult, far, and dissapointing for sure that this month passes, and you just don't win a thing.

So...... Did you "really" get ready for this spiritual full of charm month?!




" اللهم بلغنا رمضان "

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Dad ?!!

Shall I hug him?
Shall I kiss him??
Or shall I… shower him with hundreds of kisses as soon as I see him?!

I really don’t know what to say either!!
Shall I tell him how much I missed him?
Or shall I tell him that I love him a lot?

Shall I tell him “Don’t leave me again?”
Or….. Is it enough to hug him strongly, and that will make him understand??!

These were the thoughts which came to my mind when I heard my mother talking on the phone saying, “Really? I really don’t believe you? You’re on your way now? That’s certainly a big surprise!! Don’t believe you.”… These were what my mother was saying. Yes…. She was talking to my father whom I reeeeeeally missed a lot. He made us a surprise& came to us while we were in Alex.


It has been many months I haven't seen him, and I was really in need to listen to him, in need of his wisdom, and also his great kindness& love and friendly atmosphere in which he shares everyone else, even those he doesn't know.

I know that some "girlies" would say "Oh my God!! She might have found her prince charming. that's him. For sure she's talking about him." : ) ...... But no.. I'm talking about my daddy, whom I really missed a lot.


The best thing I like about him is that I feel he's a good friend to everyone in the whole world, and that feeling is not coz he's my father. He certainly have many defects, just like any other person in the world, but that's something seriously... whenever we go out anywhere, we find him laughing and joking with anyone in the streets, this includes people in other cars "if they were nice enough to talk when we're stuck in traffic", people in the street, traffic controlers, and even old men sitting in coffe shops if our car went on narrow streets. He laughs with them, and always salutes everyone... the cool thing is that most people feel that "very friendly" atmosphere, and so... return back the nice way of talking.


My father has come... And I don't feel I can tell him anything!! I have many COMPLEX thoughts in my mind that I feel, but can't get out.
Wish to tell him not to leave us anymore... or say that...... We only live once, so forget about everything& just let's stick together. Wish to tell him that I'm getting older everyday, and he wouldn't notice this unless he's here in Egypt, and will suddenly find me getting married& leaving our house forever. Don't we really need to stay together? and we'll hang on against any circumstances?!


Sunday, August 5, 2007

Just feeling I wanna say these words


Whenever you feel very sad...

an' Whenevr you feel very mad...

Feel quite sorry for yourself...

knowing that it's just a phase in ur life,

that would come to an end for sure...

But when??!


You feel as if you're sinking...

And pain &agony... you're daily drinking...

Feel sorry for your sorrow...

Waiting for the bright tommorrow..


Feeling you're all alone,

and hearts of people are of stone...

Certainly, as they don't feel you...


You look around searching for someone to save you,

Just give you a hand and then even leave you,

Searching for someone to listen...

Searching for someone to hug you when you need it...

Searching for a shoulder to cry on...


When you feel it's really too dark,

And you're all alone,

None can feel what you feel...

Just REMEMBER...


That there's actually someone who really cares.


HE is always there beside you...

Knowing what you feel...

knowing what you wish,

& knowing what you fear...

More than any friend..

That you thought he was so dear...


Believe me, HE's always there.....

Watching you,

Hearing every whisper you say,

And every pray you have,

Seeing tears that you shed ...

In the middle of the night,

Knowing everything about you,

Just remember HE's there,

And HE would certainly help you.

It's Allah... HE's always there beside you.